Let’s get real for a HOT second

Today is going to be a little different. I have been going THROUGH IT the past couple weeks. As much as positivity is something I want to focus on. Sometimes, you have to sit back and be realistic and process everything happening. This is me processing exactly that and how I’m going to turn it around. A lot has changed, and I won’t lie it has been extremely stressful and emotional. I was on such a high for so long, so happy with everything in my life. Thankful for my amazing job, people in my life and I was improving myself everyday. Then all of a sudden it comes crashing down like a ton of bricks. Let’s take a stroll through my series of unfortunate events!

Being in the industry that I’m in, everyone we come in contact with can be very vulnerable and emotional. They’re coming to us because they’re in obvious pain and in need of relief. I love being that ray of hope for every patient that walks through that door. However, sometimes their feelings are beyond their injury. You don’t know what someone is going through once they leave your clinic. Some are very open, some are not. Sometimes they tell you things that weigh extremely heavy on you and it’s hard to deal with. It’s so difficult to not take it upon yourself to be their saving grace. I had to learn that recently. All you want is to protect every patient, and sometimes that means going the extra mile to make sure they’re okay and happy. In which case it becomes a meeting of the minds and a group effort to make sure they have the support they need. Even though I know that everything is okay, it’s still eating away at me. Emotionally it’s a lot to digest, especially when you’re an empath like myself. I have spoken about this before in previous entries. I absorb people’s emotions and let them take over my own. Which has been extremely debilitating this time around. What I have been trying to remind myself of is that you can support them, not fix them. That is definitely a work in progress.

To end off my week, due to COVID19 my company had no choice but to lay me off. Which, I knew may happen eventually so I tried to prepare myself. It didn’t make the blow any less difficult. I can honestly say, I absolutely adore my job. An incredible company and being able enhance the lives of our patients. Not being able to do this now, has been extremely difficult to adjust to. However, I know that the company has done everything they could to protect the lives of us employees as well as their patients. Laying anyone off was the last thing they wanted to do and the conversations were very emotional. I would not want to be in their shoes and applaud them for how they’ve handled these difficult times. I am thankful for them and the people I was lucky enough to work with every day. I know that this won’t last forever and I will be back there eventually. It’s the unknown that is the scariest part, for all of us. Although, there are others a lot worse off than myself and I try to keep that in mind.

Now that I, as well as many others are in quarantine. I am very much trying to make the best of it. I’ve gone through why the past while has been super difficult. Let’s talk how I’m fixing it!

I have definitely taken up a lot of new hobbies. I continue my writing and getting my blog to where I want it. Increasing my social media engagement to make sure I can be a support for others during this time. I have made my own adult colouring books and cooking A LOT. Exercising and doing yoga as often as I can. Keeping my mind stimulated and myself physically active. I am using this time to collect my thoughts and better myself. Organizing EVERYTHING IN MY HOUSE, which if you know me is my idea of a good time. Making sure to keep contact with those in my life. Isolation is definitely a state of mind and as long as you maintain your relationships, you will never lose the sense of connection. Getting my mindset back onto my future and not my recent downfalls. Lastly, I have applied to foster a pup from a couple different rescues! My everyday life from work to volunteering at City Kidz shows that I love improving the lives of others. I obviously can’t do that right now and it’s getting to me quite a bit. I figured what better way to still make an impact while in quarantine than to take in a little pup that’s just looking for some love until they find a forever home! It will help me avoid the feeling of isolation and focus my time on giving them the best life possible. Giving me that sense of responsibility again that’s I’ve been missing.

Safe to say, I am very ready to tackle this upcoming epidemic with positivity and self improvement!!

You can do the same and I hope I can be a point of reference for you if you’re having a hard time. xx